Tuesday, December 30, 2014

Back From The Dead

I swear I wasn't really dead, just a little preoccupied with life. Really, I mean it. Look at all I've been up to since the last time I posted in July ->

(holy hell, July...I'm a little ashamed I let the gap between posts get that big)


We decided to take this month off from fertility treatment because of the San Francisco trip we'd planned like 8 months before the baby making/trying happened. Sorry, paid vacations sometimes trump all; especially in super stressful times. So yeah we went to San Fran and I got to spend a few days with my favorite girl, Em. We also spent a few days farther up North visiting Rusty's family.

Gigi hanging out in her new dog-stroller. Girl was not gonna be trekking down those filthy San Fran streets, nu-un she's way too good for that.

Em & I taking photos of...stuff...?

That's right, I can hold up a bridge with my right hand.

We also adopted a new dog, Mavi. Sorry, I don't have a picture. I suck.


 We were pretty much broke after our NorCal trip(s) so we pretty much stayed in all month. Oh, we did celebrate Rusty's 31st bday (at home, with a homemade cake) - hey, it's something.

But we also got some really awesome, yet unexpected news...

That's right, there's a baby a brewing! After a month off treatment and only relaxing, it finally happened.

This was our pregnancy announcement. 

We also got some very unexpected BAD news...
Turns out the MIL was diagnosed with the worst stage of ovarian cancer. Wuah wuah wuah.


This was a boring month. Honestly I don't even remember doing anything except getting to see the nugget a few times. This was the second picture we got of it at 9 weeks. 

It looks like a chubby gummy baby haha. I teased Rusty & told him it was definitely his kid because of the giant head.

Oh and worst of all, the nausea set in. BAD.

It was so bad I had to carry barf bags in my purse cause Id hurl at any & every moment. Morning sickness my ass, it was more like ALL fucking day sickness. Thank gawd for Ginger Ale & saltines. 


Spent most of this month like the last - hugging the toilet or with my head in a barf bag. It was hell. Hell, I tell ya.

And if that wasn't bad enough - the MIL passed away. That's right, that cancer bastard ate her away in a matter of three months. It was tough. It still is.


What the fuck is this feeling? Could this be...no...yes...OMG, I feel normal again! *angels rejoice*
Morning sickness is 99% gone and I feel bursts of energy again. However my insides ache and I find myself applying Cocoa Butter on my belly more than a tranny applies makeup. I know stretch marks are gonna happen, I just don't want them to come in with a vengeance so whatever it takes.

Had enough energy to attend Rusty's company Christmas party for a little under 3 hours. Baby steps, right?

That's me - 18 weeks. This was taken last week (I'm 19 weeks & 4 days today).

So yeah, that's what I've been doing lately. Growing a human...fun times. Guess I should've listened closer when people told me to be careful what I wished for. Not that I'm not grateful for this pregnancy, hell I tried and cried over wanting it enough, but it's tough. 


  1. Lin I am all verklempt over here. So sorry about your mother-in-law, cancer is such a motherfucker. And the baby...oh the baby!! I love the ultrasound picture, I had one at 10 weeks and it looked like a fat snowman. Congratulations, friend! So, so good to hear from you again.

  2. Man...I am so sorry about the mother in law. My sympathies! So um, that baby has a gourd as a head. I can't wait to see that thing at full term. Squeezing that thing out is going to be fuuunn! lol I'm teasing. But I couldn't be happier for you both. And yes...new name for Morning Sickness needs to be found. That's just a bunch of horse shit.

  3. I'm sorry to hear about your mother in law. That's awful! I'm really excited that you were able to get pregnant though; hope the nausea starts to lighten up soon! Happy New Year- I hope 2015 is a fantastic year for you. Oh, and LOVE the pregnancy announcement.


  4. It has been some crazy months, and I'm so sorry about your mother in law. Though I'm super excited to hear about your baby, so happy that it finally happend for you:)

  5. Lin, I am so so sorry for your loss. I know that feeling and it sucks so much. I am sending you lots of love and hugs. I hope you are doing okay and are not feeling sick all the time! Your dogs are so adorable and I am so excited for you guys! <3

  6. YAY!! I'm due May 6th, so let's stay connected so we can talk about vaginal discharge (like, where is it all coming from!?) and babies!

  7. OMG!! Did Lin just pop up on my feed? No way! :) I'm so happy for you and Rusty about the baby, but I am also sorry for your loss. That photo of the two of you is great! Also, those two dogs are absolutely adorable!

  8. OMG LIN I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR YOU TO POP UP AGAIN!!!!!!! I'm so excited for you guys!!!!!!! Keep us all updated, okay?

    And on the other end of the spectrum, I'm so, so sorry about your MIL. We just lost my grandfather-in-law, and he helped raise my husband so he was more like a FIL...it was rough, especially so close to the holidays. I guess we can't time these things, huh? But I hope you and Rusty are pulling along. You make such a cute couple!!!!

  9. Yay for a baby!! I'm so happy for you!! And I'm glad your "morning" sickness has subsided. I tell you, for stretch marks I used Basque body butter and haven't got any. It's a bit pricey (about $35 a tub). I was allergic to the cheap stuff. Go figure. But a baby!! Yay!
    Happy 2015 indeed!

  10. What a year! Congratulations! You and Rusty are going to have the sweetest, cutest baby!

    Sorry to hear about MIL! That is truly awful!
    2015 is going to be such an awesome year for you guys! <3

  11. Oh wow. Your year was filled with all kinds of events. So incredibly happy you're expecting. Love the announcement. Best way. I am however very sad to hear your MIL passed away this quickly and had no chance whatsoever to fight the evil monster. My heart goes out to you and your hubby's family. May 2015 be a fantastic one with lots of laughter and love.

  12. I had a feeling that's why I hadn't seen you on Instagram! I am SO freaking thrilled for you guys! I hope you bombard us all with tons and tons of pictures. Congratulations friend!

    Many hugs for a rough end to the year.

  13. Nice to see you back (although I've been MIA myself the past 6 months or so). Congrats on your fetus!

  14. a little behind the times, but congrats!! on the baby news!


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