Monday, July 9, 2012
I'm Not THAT Fat, It's Just The Photo...Right?
If this post was being written last week it would be full of happy go lucky bullshit about being in a really good place with my body. Today? Not so much.
It's funny what a couple of really badly lit, bad angle photos, and a not so flattering outfit can do you to your self esteem. Fucking facebook.
Over the weekend a family member posted photos of our Vegas weekend on FB and to say it appears that I've got more lumps than cottage cheese would be an understatement. For reals, it looks like I'm the marshmallow man, or at least ate him.
Of course, being in complete denial I did the 'smart' thing & asked Rusty to look at the photos and tell me if I was really that BIG or were they just bad photo(s)? Poor dude, he didn't stand a chance of winning here.
He took one look & said "well, they're definitely not good photos," which to my crazy woman brain meant "you're a fat ass who eats everything in sight so yes you look exactly like that."
He tried to make things better by reminding me that the camera adds 10 pounds but realistically there would have had to be about 4 cameras on me at that moment to make me look that rotund. The sad truth is I have let myself go. A lot.
I rack diciprine. Eat whatever I want. Never ever exercise. Sit a computer 10 hrs a day for work & then go home to lay in bed until it's bedtime. I'm a sloth & I'm beginning to look like one.
A really large one.
Rusty's been too nice to say something but I see it now. Too bad I couldn't see it 20 pounds ago. So, now it's time to get shit done & get rid of these excess tires. Since I can't even afford to buy new shoes at the moment, liposuction is pretty much out of the question so I guess it's time to cut out all those delicious hamburgers & french fries. Maybe even get my lazy ass to the gym a couple times a week since I've been paying the membership for the last 3 years.
I'm also giving thought to starting that Herbalife stuff. My younger brother & mom did it last year & they lost about 10 pounds in a month...sounds good to me! And before all the healthy people start getting all preachy on me, I know this isn't going to solve my fat problems. I'm completely aware I have to change the way I live, but losing 10 pounds? Now that's what I like to call a great way to fucking start.
What do you guys do to keep the fat monster away?