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Thursday, August 4, 2011

Who Is This Girl...She's Being So Optomistic


I was laying in bed last night trying to remember if I'd packed everything I needed, tickets included, for today's water park trip and it dawned on me that throughout that entire thought process I never once thought about how fat I'd look in my water drenched lycra swimsuit.

Strange.

As much as I dread wearing a bathing suit at all in public I think I'm at a point in my life where I can truthfully say I don't give a shit that I'm not a size 8 but am rockin a 13 and I may have a very unwanted belly pudge but at the end of the day I'm going home with a cute fella...the best part being I don't feel compelled to promise him a 'good night', ha.

Being 28 has been a lot different than any other 20 something age. I can't tell you what it is or when exactly my outlook changed but it did and I feel different. More sure of myself.

I still have bad days, days where I look in the mirror and see a chunky face that hides that potential size 8 girl but I don't beat myself up over it. And today I'll try not to feel like a total fatty after seeing a bunch of little 18 yr old girls flaunt their skinny little butts around in barely there bathing suits.

Today, it just doesn't seem worth it.

Instead I'll opt for a salad instead of a burger, try not to trip over my own foot going up all those stairs to the slides and attempt to not offend anyone with accidental camel toe (happens more often than you'd imagine). Yep, I think today I'll try to enjoy every second of every minute because no matter what size I am, I'm only 28 once...actually I'm only this age for approximately 5.5 more months. Yikes!
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In other news, I'm thinking of doing the low carb thing. My doc says I should try losing at least 10 lbs which is totally possible (he wants 20 but lets keep it real yo) but I'm finding it really difficult to change up my eating habits. You know, with my current habit being eating anything I grab through a fast food window :/




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6 comments:

  1. Love your swimsuit attitude! I am a forty something size twelve but still cannot bring myself to wear a suit AT ALL let alone in public! Of course, I don't have a cute guy to go home with so maybe that has something to do with it...

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  2. I figure there's always someone who looks worse. Enjoy your late 20's. Things changed for me quite a bit around that age and honestly, I am so much better for it.

    Enjoy your day at the water park!

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  3. Embracing your body is truly one thing that every woman needs to do. I'm still not there yet...but someday.

    I say, enjoy yourself! And I love your attitude but um, where of where is my pessimistic Linny? I heart her! :P

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  4. YAY for the optimism!! And yay for the water park fun!!

    Also? The low carb diet is TERRIBLE for you. And I'm not just saying that because I'm Italian and the thought of anyone taking away my bread and pasta makes me homicidal. One of my old biochem teachers actually spent a class reviewing the "fad" diets and named that one the worst. He seemed pretty favorable toward the South Beach diet though...don't know if that's helpful, but I tried!!

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  5. How timely, I'm going to a "pool party" tomorrow. It's a potluck and all women but still - bathing suits - yuck!

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  6. Wow I have to say I loved this post and I loved your attitude. I wish I could feel like that- I wear the swimsuit, and I might ACT like I'm not bothered, but I'm SO bothered! I usually cant enjoy the time im at the beach/pool/whereever because im thinking about my mashed potato thighs and bingo wing arms. UGH. But I totally agree with you- I feel so much less pressure being 26 than I did being 20! Onward and upward all the way!!

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