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Wednesday, March 3, 2010

Tell It Like It Is

I miss the innocence that I had as a child. Everything seemed so great & I had the world at my fingertips. When I was about 9 years old I told my dad that I was going to find the perfect boy & marry him. We would then buy a farm & live our lives happily raising our farm animals. He laughed, hugged me & told me he too hoped that one day that would come true.

I'm the only girl in my family so of course I'm the apple of my dads' eye but I really wish he would have mentioned then that life isn't that simple. Money doesn't grow on trees or just appear in your savings account because the bank thought you could use a little extra. The company you work wont always need you, heck they could hire a temp to work for a quarter of your pay. And, an apple a day does not always keep the doctor away.

Don't get me wrong, my parents didn't always sugar coat things for me. I starting working & paying bills at home at age 16 because my parents needed the help. I've always been a go getter. I don't wait for my problems to be fixed by someone else, although I sometimes like to bury my head in the sand for awhile.

Times are tough & we're all feeling it but I never would have imagined I'd be in the 'unknown' place I am now. This time last year I thought I had my life all set & planned out. We would have bought a house by now, had a baby or I'd be pregnant, I'd be putting more money into my retirement plan & I sure as hell wouldn't be worrying about having Graves Disease. Thanks life, thanks for this massive curve ball you've hucked my way!

I'm frustrated. I'm tired. I'm a huge ball of emotions because my thyroid doc changed my meds. I need to vent & that's what this is. I'm just totally thankful that today is Wednesday because this week needs to seriously end already. Today's just a bad day & I know tomorrow's hopefully going to be a better day.... *fingers crossed*.

7 comments:

  1. Big hugs coming your way sweets. Life is hard sometimes. Just keep chipping away at what you can. xoxoxoxox

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  2. *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs*

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  3. Hopefully things are going to look up. Best wishes your way. :)

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  4. Hang in there.
    We are with you in spirit.

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  5. I feel you, sister. This is me: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Prolactinoma

    I can't even hold my friend's babies lately because it makes my milk come in. I stopped breast feeding two YEARS ago! (It also explains why we only have one kid.)

    I hope the new meds help!! I just started new meds and lost 5 lbs in two days!

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  6. Life does always throw curve balls...the trick is not to get hit with them, and instead whack them out of the park. Stay positive!

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  7. {Hugs} to you from FL. Hope your week is going better.

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